My Own Worst Enemy.

In retrospect, not a lot of things in life get me down. But one thing that really just depresses the hell out of me is how i chose to make decisions. I don't like to read too deeply into things, so when it comes to making a choice, it's almost such an "enie-menie-minie-moe" situation with me. I think that makes me my own worst enemy a lot of the time. I don't make decisions or choices based on what will make me the happiest or better, i basically base it on what is going to make it easier on me and everyone around me. i avoid making choices that hurt me or my friends around me which is weird because i can be the riskiest person, but I'm so conserved some days. i have the absolute worst inner conflicts about almost everything. if it comes down to two things i can't chose between i just usually drop both and don't think about it. because i do this, i really am never sure what i really want or what makes me happy because of this. it's not even that I'm indecisive or anything and i can't make a choice, it's just that i hate making them. i hate having to think about consequences so i just do things a lot of the time without thinking about it. i know it's stupid and it's going to end up biting me in the end. but or now it just makes things easier.