be real, you fools.

be real. don't ever pretend to be something you are not. when you are speaking to someone, you look them straight in the eye so they know you are telling the truth. don't you ever dare stare blank into another's face, and lie to them. that's just wrong. if you are going to lie, you do it where their eyes don't match yours. you don't look them in the eye and tell them a bold faced lie. wear what you want to wear. don't worry what's in style or what anyone else thinks. it's your style that makes you who you are. don't be afraid of risks. take them willingly. but don't become a straight addict. don't live your life on impulse for there are consequences for our actions. but live it fully. don't ever give up on anything, especially yourself. don't ever give up on anything you believe in. don't ever turn your back on those who mean the most. they are not replaceable. don't ever leave your best friends for what you think are "better" friends. don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, for the one you like will leave you for the one they love. don't ever try to be more or less than who you really are. follow social niceties. be polite to people. but always be honest. don't tell someone you dislike that you can be their best friend. that's just dishonest. politely let them know that they annoy the crap out of you. when letting someone know they suck, you must always be the better person. don't do to them what they do to you. two wrongs do not make a right. be sensitive to other's feelings no matter how insensitive they can be to you. look them in the eye and gently tell them. leave me alone. it's very simple. sarcasm is easy but unhelpful in most situations. i have come to discover that many people cannot pick up on sarcasm and are easily offended. if you are the type to brush off their emotions like a little dust on your shoulder, then life is simple. but will not always be pleasant. when letting someone down. you apologize. and never assume sorry is enough. you ask what it is you can do to make it up to them. you never assume you can justify your actions. be proud, but not boastful. being condescending is the most evil of all sins. you being good at something doesn't give you the right to make someone else feel like crap. Be careful what you pretend to be because you are what you pretend to be. don't just speak to hear yourself speak. it's freakin' annoying when people do that. it's like people have to talk about something just to keep their voice boxes in working order so they'll have good voice boxes in case there's ever anything really meaningful to say. it's dumb. don't be dumb. it'll make me just like you less. be social. don't stay home all the time. spend time with your friends and show them you care. i hate people who sit at home every night and talk to their dogs, or action figures or whatever. like dude, go outside and get some goddamn fresh air. 

www.free-music-is-sweet.com

in some ways it would be awesome if music was free to download. then so many ore people would be able to afford to listen to music. on the other hand though, then the musicians that produce the music wouldn't really make a lot of money. no matter what the rules are, people are going to find a way to break them. even now, kids send each other songs through AIM, email, usb, burn cds, use downloaders like limewire and frostwire. 

sometimes i feel bad because if you think about it, there are only maybe 15 songs on a track. lets say you buy a cd for 20 dollars. the musicican is only making maybe .75 a song. and that takes time to produce each song. so it's really unfair to them.

but i mean, one dollar for a song on itunes is pretty expensive once it starts to add up. and if its a bunch of kids who want music maybe they can't afford it. i think there needs to be some kind of compromise.

what would you do if you were deaf and blind?..

".. character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.." Helen Keller.

the quote i chose is a heavy one that holds a lot of truth. life cannot be gone through easily, fluidly, quietly, or happily. i think for people to become their true selves they need to go through life with open arms accepting anything that comes their way. no one ever said that life would be easy, nor would anything be simple. to learn, sometimes you must hurt. to grow, sometimes you must take a step back. and to love, you must lose. 

i think that coming from helen keller that means a lot. she went through almost her whole life blind and deaf. completely cut off from the world in a way that all other people connect to others. i'm sure there were times she just wanted to give up and let life take it's toll on her. and i think life is about those moment. those moments where you feel smaller than the words you speak. you feel little, and insignificant compared to the world. but you are small. everyone is small, and its not a bad thing. life is about being small and making a big impact. it's not about making as much money as possible, it's not about  what you wear, or who you're friends with. its about the little moments that make you happy. so many people are afraid to live the small moments because they're afraid of pain. they're afraid the small moments lead to the big ones. and that all that will lead to making a choice. but making choices is life. it's a privilege and a right. 

live every small emotion, little every little moment. touch as many people as possible in your life. because life is so short. one minute you're obsessing over what dress to wear to prom, the next you're sitting in your house wondering where your life went. do as much as you can in a lifetime. don't waste time with the little worries and concerns, but live as fully as possible and help as many people as possible. if you see someone carry something heavy, go help them. because they won't forget that. if a friend is crying, comfort them, because they will not forget that either. 

cherish the ones you love, and forget anything that gets in your way. don't ever let anyone tell you that you can't do something. because life is about what you can't do. it's about what you didn't bother to try to do. learn as much as possible. learn a new language. communicate with as many people as possible. learn a new dance. speak with your body. paint something, show what you can do with your hands. sing a song, let's hear your pitch, who cares if it sucks?  

"... arthritis in our thumbs."

little by little, technology brings us closer together. first, it was morse code. then, it was the very first telephone. now, we all have cellphones that keeps us in touch at the touch of a keyboard. but is it all too much? the article we read in class talks about the positives and negatives of cellphone use, and texting in particular. on the positive side, texting keeps us in touch with our friends and family members. it is quick and easy, and usually won't take away from the setting or situation we are in. when in a crowded room, no one wants to walk away or out of the room to make a brief phone call saying, "hey, i'll call you back." it's much easier to just send a brief text.

on the downside, it makes people avoid face to face contact. or voice to voice contact. on top of that people tend to shorten words in texts that they later use in dialogue. and little by little, as people text more, they require need more to fulfill those texting needs. the phones are just getting smaller and smaller. and our fingers aren't adapting to those decreasingly small sizes.

in some ways i agree. i think sometimes when you just need a brief conversation with someone texting is useful. especially if you're in a place where a phone call would be inconvenient. if you were on a bus or in a room full of people, it would be annoying to make a phone call. in a bus, it would be rude because buses are usually pretty quiet and it would be irritating to the other passengers to be chatting on a phone. and if you were in a room full of crowded people, the person on the other line would have a hard time hearing what you were saying. in those cases yes, i agree texting can be good.

on the other hand, i dislike the way people turn words into slush. words like thanks being turned into "thnx" or great into "gr8". it would take maybe 2 more letters to just write the entire words out. or when people start using words like "gunna" in actual writing. it's a mockery of the english language. i also hate when two people sitting next to each other are texting each other. that's just irritating. just talk to each other right? on top of that, texting makes people so paranoid. i can't stand it when people check their phones every 2 seconds making sure no one has texted them. i mean, i'm sure you'll hear it when it rings. texting is fun and i do it too, but i don't get paranoid about my phone or irritate others around me with it.

dinner time.

i guess dinner time is a time for a family to come together around the same table, share a meal, share details of their day, and all just bask in happiness and family-together-ness-time. i know dinner time is important and all, but i'm social without having an overwhelming amount of joy for too much time with other people. i like spending time and meals with friends and family. but dinner time is the one time of the day i enjoy being by myself. i usually make my own meals or buy my own meals. i like sitting by myself, listening to some music, reading while i eat, and just relaxing. it's just quiet. my whole day is spent being hectic and busy, so dinner's the only real time of the day i can just sit back and not have to think about everything behind me.

yesterday night, i had penne vodka for dinner. i learned to make it from a good family friend. i made it which took my about 25 minutes or so. i took it up to my room and sat down. sometimes instead of reading, i like watching a little tv while i eat. so i watched some law and order, flipped through the history and discovery channel, and finished my meal. i guess it's not exactly quiet since the tv is on, but i mean. at least it's not someone talking non-stop about something i don't really care that much about. i just like being alone sometimes and i don't think it's weird to be honest. i mean it sounds unsocial by all means, but everyone has those moment they need to just be alone. and for me, that's dinner time. 

"Samhain."

halloween, samhain, the festival of the dead. whatever you call it. everyone gets the same image in their minds. little kids in awkward costumes going around begging for food, i mean candy. the scenerary is always the same. it's always cold. it's always windy. your shoes get ruined and tracked in soggy toilet paper from the night before. but one halloween will set it's self apart from all other halloweens.

it was last halloween. my friends and i were in new york city near Greenwich village. obviously we were all dressed as something inappropriate. it was getting late and we decided to head out. we were all sitting there. in our costumes on a new york city bus. on any other night in and other city we would have been freaks. 

it was a good night, got plenty of candy, shot plenty of people with paintballs, and we were plenty tired. So we got back onto a bus from SOHO back to Jersey. we were so tired we all fell asleep and started dozing off. all of a sudden my phone rings. "WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU GUYS..." i turn around and realized we left my friend Jason behind. alone. in SOHO. DRESSED AS A PREGNANT HOOTERS GIRL. 

so we sent him a cab and he got home okay. he was pretty pissed for a week or two. but serves him right for talking to random homeless people in SOHO.

"my name."

"susan lee. " 8 letters altogether. 3 syllables in total. "eel nasus" backwards. i like it though. i've had quite a few nicknames. but my most famous must be the nickname that incorporates my entire name without a space between the first and the last. suzylee. it's what people know me as. you can say it in one breath. you can say it without stopping for a pause. it's just simple and straight to the point. it's different and simple. i think that's what makes it me. i'm pretty simple and by far pretty different. i think it's interesting in the sense that one of my all time favorite bands has a song called "Suzy Lee." it's also interesting the song describes me in the most opposite way. it's a song about being unsure, insecure, negative, and scared of being alone. i don't consider myself any of that. i'm sure of myself and the person i've worked hard to become. i'm not negative or positive. i'm realistic. and most of all, i'm not afraid to be alone. i know that the only person whose going to take care of you is yourself and everyone needs to learn that. everyone needs to learn that they can't expect people to always be there to fall on and depend on. sometimes, when you fall it's up to you to put your own hands on the ground and push yourself back up. lee. it's such a common name. i've heard it as a first name, a middle name, and as a last name. but i like the tone it has. suzy lee. i get to use 2 letters most people don't get to use in a name. it's not a loose name it's not a strong name. it's practical to me with a bit of an artistic flare. and to me, that's perfectly fine. 

"Stress."

i think every generation has it's own concerns. some get passed down from the past to years to come. growing up in a time where everyone in your country is borderline insane and the government is now just controlled chaos, it's not fun. everyday you turn on the television and the headline for the day is "COUNTRY IN RECESSION. ECONOMY FAILING. PEOPLE DYING. THE TERRORISTS ARE COMING FOR US. EXPECT TO HAVE CANCER. tune in at 11." 

it just really puts a lot of pressure on people i think. on top of being really worried about the government doing it's job, people are worried about loosing there's. i've never known a world without the fear of global warming and the freakin' atmosphere collapsing on us. it really does affect the way i live. global warming especially worries me. i don't want to be living on mars in 10 years. i do what i can to really recycle. on top of that, the economy recessing really does take a toll on families and bussinesses everywhere. my parents are always talking about how hard bussiness is. it makes you much more careful with your money and appriciate what you have a lot more. 

and the terror in the world is really just cripplig sometimes. sometimes, if you just sit back and think about the danger in the world. it really does scare you.

"Laughter."

I don't really see it. My sister and I are nothing alike, but apparently we are. But how? I'm old enough to know what the hype around the Spice Girls was like, and to understand what song people are talking about when they refer to "Baby, Got Back." I'm old enough to have thoroughly enjoyed a movie about an annoying kid who gets left "Home Alone," and understand what the acronym TMNT is. What is she old enough for? I have incense sitting in my room older than her. I flip the channels and pick probably the most violent show or whatever has cars crashing into things. Her? She picks the show with the most color or some show that revolves around a figment of some crackhead's imagination. (a.k.a Spongebob? The Hell?..) Her clothes never match because she's going through what my mother calls "a phase." (Mind you, that's what she called it when my sister spent two weeks running into walls. Yea... okay..) She always wants to pick her own clothes so it usually ends up being purple pants, a yellow shirt, and some belt that couldn't have any more obnoxious designs on it. Me, on the other hand, I'm really not sure if I own anything that isn't completely or partially black. So I don't see it. We aren't alike. Well, I'm pretty sure she gets her attitude problem from me. Or the strange things she says every now and then are probably my fault too. The only time i realized that we were actually related was when she got sent home early from school for mauling a kid in her class. He took her lunch box, and I MAY have insinuated to her that it was okay to hit people if they started it. So she kicked, punched, bit, and basically destroyed the kid. Yup, maybe we are related. 

"Christianity will go. It will vanish and shrink. I needn't argue with that; I'm right and I will be proved right..."

"Christianity will go. It will vanish and shrink. I needn't argue with that; I'm right and I will be proved right. We're more popular than jesus now; I don't know which will go first- rock and roll or Christianity. Jesus was alright, but his disciples were thick and ordinary. It's them twisting it that ruins it for me." - John Lennon.

This quote by John Lennon was in reference to the Fab Four. Also known as The Beatles.

It's really funny actually how upset the general public got over this. In my opinion it's really not like he was deliberately offending the Christians of the world. He was more sharing his opinion of the faith. He isn't declaring that the Christina faith was stupid or anything, he was just saying that there was a lot to it that he didn't agree with. He is saying that he's fine with the religion. He is just stating that he feels like everything is twisted and corrupted. It really is hard to decipher between the truth and the lies sometimes because of how old the stories are and how long it takes for those stories to be passed down. 

I really think people just over react a little. It's not like other people aren't thinking it.  It's just the fact that he's famous and what he says is broadcasted all over the headlines the minute it comes out of his mouth. Like really now. Who cares? And let's be honest. Okay so he was being a little cocky. But seriously.. The Beatles were big. We're talking defined the musical standard for the 60's kind of big. So yeah, maybe he had a bit of a huge ego. But I mean. Who cares? Let him say what he wants to say. You know?

"If You're Going To Screw Up, Do It While You're Young."

Question: Do you worry about becoming an adult? Why or Why Not?

Answer: 

not really. i have a really realistic attitude towards life and it gets my through just about everything. i don't consider my self pessimistic nor am i optimistic. i'm just plain realistic. i realize that some things are beyond my control and i don't go out of my way to get upset or worried by them. growing up is a part of like. it's a big change but that doesn't mean it's a bad thing. changing is what makes us human. and we just have to accept the fact that we can either be prepared or unprepared. if you do everything in your power to prepare for life then you'll be fine. if you don't, then there's a good chance that you won't be okay. that's the reality of life. so, i guess my answer is no. i am not worried about growing up. 

for example, if you study for a test, you'll be fine and you'll pass. if you didn't, then you're probably going to fail. that's just the reality of the fact. worrying and being nervous isn't going to help you pass that test one way or another so there's no point in worrying or being nervous. on top of that, if you worry too much about the future, you forget to live in the present. you forge to just have a good time living life and the experiences that life has to offer. schools and parents only pressure kids to worrying about their future and their lives as adults. and then they get mad when kids are rushing to grow up. stop rushing us. let us just enjoy our childhood and friends while we still have time. we'll have plenty of time to worry about being an adult when we're adults. i mean, there's nothing wrong with preparing but worrying and stressing out won't do much for us at this moment. some things you just have to experiance to understand. so how are we supposed to know how to act like adults, if we aren't adults? for now, i'm fine with just enjoying my life and having a good time. you don't miss what you have until it's gone and i don't want to be that person who grows up and realizes that they completely missed out on their childhood. you know?

"The Idea Is More Important Than The Object."

so, i guess this is my first post on this blog. not really sure what to talk about so i guess i can talk about my blog's title and why i chose it.

"the idea is more important than the object" is a quote by my favorite artist, my muse, and source of inspiration. his name is damien hirst. 

what this quote illustrates is that the effort and thought is much more important than the execution of that idea or though. i just personally really love that quote because it makes me realize that it's not about being the best or how well you do something. it's about the journey of getting there. what fun is life if you live rushing? rushing to grow up, rushing to get out of the house, rushing to be something else. sometimes, if you live too much in the future, you forget to live in the present. you know?